Poetry of the air

Music was my refuge.
I could crawl into the space between the notes
and curl my back to loneliness.
-Maya Angelou

miss those music making orchestra days. it's hard to comprehend why there is such a deep part of my soul that is drawn out when melodies interplay, accompaniments and harmonies marry, music matches the aural, and you know the next note which hangs at the tip of your eardrums.

when i know music isn't merely the science of 

producing a series of sounds.

Over 25 years, i've realised the things which are important to me,

and which i will cling on with my dear life. the love of:

God

Family

Friends

Music

is it just fear that drives me away?